I used to be so happy and free and I didn't care what anyone thought of me at all,
I had loads of people who loved me, apart from my family.
I liked myself and i loved life. I never even thought about such things. Just lived everyday and loved it.
I miss it so much..but it was a LONG time ago..very long time, something bad happened with a guy, and then my mom getting sick, really changed me forever. I wish this wasn't true but i think it is. I've been trying to be myself again but it’s no use. I’m withdrawn, lonely, scared and avoid people and situations where there may be people. None would believe how i used to be if they saw me now. It’s been so long that some people may have forgotten . But i haven’t. And i never will. And i miss it everyday. But i guess it’s never going to come back. I’m tired. I’m getting older and it seems i will never have it back.